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enyorança (p: [ə ɲu 'ran sə]) - catalan: n. a state of longing

Chronicling the ex-expat life and the desire for something greater. Experiences, thoughts, and ideas formed because of a former lifestyle that's disappeared. Global culture, domestic lifestyle. Consolidated into an outlet that may or may not be interesting to anyone else. Also a kind of travel blog because sometimes I go places. All photography is mine unless credited otherwise.

dimarts, 29 de novembre del 2011

Come fly with me, let's fly, let's fly away

 I've been applying for some jobs lately.  We just moved into a new house, the first house my parents have owned since 1996 when we sold our house in Neenah, Wisconsin before moving to New Jersey before we moved to what we thought was France but ended up being Spain.  So I can finally put down a real address on my résumé, though I'm still lacking a cell phone number.  Home phone will have to do.

I'm honestly one of those people who has a really hard time trying to figure out what she wants to do with her life.  I don't know.  There are only a few conditions I have for a job I'll enjoy, and those are frequent travel and the ability to use my language skills.  Which admittedly aren't that impressive since three of the languages I speak are Romance languages, but hey.  At least I'm not monolingual, right?  *winkwinknudgenudge*

A couple weeks ago, my best friend in Hawaii told me that Continental Airlines, based out of Houston, TX with a major hub in Newark, was hiring flight attendants and that she had applied.  I found the application, filled it out myself, and just last Friday, after getting an earful about how I really need to just get out there and get a job from my lovely parents, I looked around for other airlines that were hiring, and filled out two more applications.

The truth is, at the moment, flight attending is my dream job.  I can partly blame the current TV series Pan Am for that, but most of the blame lies in the fact that I have been traveling since I was little.  My very first memory is of me, in the back seat of a car, craning my neck out the window and looking at tall buildings on both sides of the street.  My first memory is of Manhattan, on my way to fly out to Wisconsin with my mom right after turning two.  I've been told that a person's first memory can, apparently, explain a lot about a person: where he or she's going in life, who he or she is, what makes him or her tick.  So I guess traveling's in my blood, so to speak.  Since then, I've been on planes out to Denver (when I was six and we were going to visit my dad's brother who lived out in Colorado Springs), Spain, Paris, London, Oslo, Brussels, Switzerland, New York.  I've driven through Spain, France, Germany and Italy and across a few states as well.  Up until 2004, I was on approximately six planes a year, sometimes more.  Before I got a new passport in 2007, I'd gone through two, and the last one had all but two pages filled with stamps and three student visas.

 My life has been duller than imaginable since the summer of 2004 when I came back to the States after graduating high school.  It took me two years before I was in an airport again, two years since I was on a plane again (even if it was only domestic), and I didn't leave the country again for four years.  And now, the prospect of spending very near the rest of my life traveling, going from airport to airport, country to country, a couple days here, a couple days there...getting cheap, sometimes free, flights for a vacation to anywhere else I want to go, and being able to meet and talk to people from so many different countries; some diplomats, some tourists, some businessmen and women, is a thought that does nothing but thrill me.

To be fair, only one of the positions I applied for fulfills those requirements.  Another is for an airline that flies domestically but within major cities and to Mexico, and the other is for one route: Washington Dulles to Madrid-Barajas.  I'm hoping, and praying, for positive news regarding at least one of these positions.  I've had little to no customer service experience which most airlines require and I don't live in the proper city for one of them, but if all goes well, if my résumé is considered properly, I hope I will be able to get the chance to do something that I was practically born to do.

All images are screencaps from the 2011 BBC TV documentary Come Fly With Me: The Story of Pan Am.

dilluns, 7 de novembre del 2011

Gora Euskadi! Vol. 1


  1. “Ez Naiz Beldurtzen” — Zea Mays
  2. “Muxu Batekin” — Lauroba
  3. “Batzuek Ixo” — Joseba Irazoki
  4. “Ilargia” — Ken Zazpi
  5. “43º4’51-N 2º56’39-W” — Split 77
  6. “Ihes Egin Ezazu” — Dank
  7. “Lau Teilatu” — Itoiz
  8. “Zuri Begira” — Siroka
  9. “Maite Zaitut” — Takolo, Pirritx Eta Porrotx
  10. “Marea Gora” — Koma
  11. “Itxoiten” — Gaur Ez
  12. “Rose” — Kerobia
  13. “Haizerik Gabeko Eguna” —Malenkonia
  14. “Segi, Segi, Segi” — Skalariak
  15. “Galdu Gara” — Josu Bergara
  16. “Goazen” — Hemendik At
  17. “Amets” — Gari
  18. “Lorak Eskeintzen” — Gatibu
  19. “500 Urte Ta Gero” — Berri Txarrak
  20. “Zenbat Bide?” — Etxe

divendres, 4 de novembre del 2011

Avinguda Diagonal, 442

Avinguda Diagonal, 442 (© Google Earth)
La finca, a falta de mejores palabras, parecía un cruce entre un gigantesco reloj de carillón y un buque pirata, tocado de grandiosos ventanales y un tejado de mansardas verdes.  En cualquier otro lugar del mundo, aquella estructura barroca y bizantina hubiese sido proclamada una de las siete maravillas del mundo o un engendro diabólico obra de algún loco artista poseído por espíritus del más allá.  En el Ensanche de Barcelona, donde piezas similares brotaban por doquier como tréboles tras la lluvia, apenas conseguía levantar una ceja.
-- Carlos Ruiz Zafón, El juego del ángel

The house, for lack of better words, looked like a cross between an enormous grandfather clock and a pirate ship, touched with grandiose windows and a roof of green fields.  In any other place, that Baroque and Byzantine structure would have been declared one of the seven wonders of the world or the diabolical project of some crazy artist possessed by spirits from the other side.  In Barcelona's Eixample, where similar pieces rose up all around like clover after the rain, it barely raised eyebrows.

dijous, 3 de novembre del 2011

Ihes Betean / An Escape

I downloaded the new Ken Zazpi album (released late last year) a few days ago, and while I've liked the Basque band since I started listening to them in 2008 with their album Argiak, they far outdid themselves with this one.  I am in love with every single track on this album, particularly "Hel Nazazu Eskutik" ("Take Me By the Hand") and "Hemen Gaude" ("We're Here"), as well as this one, "Ihes Betean" ("An Escape").

This song actually caused me to have a bit of an emotional breakdown this morning, something that rarely happens (but it's the second time in the last couple months, so I am starting to worry), mostly snowballing from the lines "itzuli den etxera", which in Basque means "returning home".

"Returning home"

Those two words, repeated over and over again at the end of the song, started a chain reaction that got me to thinking about the people, or lack thereof, in my life.  The fact that my two best friends are on opposite sides of the globe with me in the middle, the fact that one of them is going through a tough situation with her family and the other who has a boyfriend in Madrid who she never gets to see (and who I've never met).  The fact that I haven't been in a situation to be able to just call up my best friend and say "Hey, want to hang out?" or to have a literal shoulder to cry on since the middle of 2000 (yes, that's 11 years).

It just makes me feel so helpless, so useless.  The internet's done a great job at bringing me closer to these people because I'm able to chat with them, but as anyone can tell you, it's just not the same as having someone down the street or across town you can call up and meet up with each other at a given spot at a given time.  I have to wait to visit my friends till I have money, or till they can come visit me, and it's been over a year since I've seen both of them.

And with this it got me thinking about my social life, and the fact that I haven't had a solid social life since possibly high school, and even that it was debateable because I didn't really have any close friends in high school either.  I just have to wonder if I really will be alone, on a physical level, forever.  Because it's been so long since I haven't felt utterly alone I don't know if I'll be able to handle not being alone.

And it's terrifying.

dimarts, 1 de novembre del 2011

Visca Catalunya! Vol. 2


  1. “Al Mar” — Manel
  2. “Alguna Cosa”  — Gossos
  3. “Les Meves Ex i Tu” — Els Amics de les Arts
  4. “Tornarem” — Lax ‘n’ Busto
  5. “Compta Amb Mi” — Dept.
  6. “La Teva-Meva Vida” — Glaucs
  7. “Per Veure’t a Tu”  Els Pets
  8. “Boomerang” — Manel
  9. “Oxigen” — Gossos
  10. “V” — Els Amics de les Arts
  11. “Poetes” — Dept.
  12. “Una Cara Bonica” — Mishima
  13. “No És Massa Tard” — Lax ‘n’ Busto
  14. “El Moment Que No Surt Mai a les Cançons” — Mishima
  15. “Barcelona” — Glaucs
  16. “Me Sobren Paraules” — Antònia Font